Thursday, 26 February 2015

Accepting the not so good days

I am not at my best during the winter. 
As previously mentioned here, I was diagnosed with Seasonal Affective Disorder after finally getting round to talking to my GP about it. 

On great days:
  • I feel like myself
  • I don't care if the weather is bad
  • I have lots of energy.
On not so good days:
  • I feel low in energy
  • My overall mood is lower
  • I find it hard to concentrate
  • I can often improve the above by doing things like:
    • Getting outside
    • Exercising
    • Using my light lamp
    • Meditating. 
Yesterday was a rough day for me and I feel lucky that it happened on a day off work:
  • Didn't want to get out of bed
  • Finally managed to drag myself to early morning circuits, but struggled as my energy levels felt quite low
  • Felt ready to go back to sleep at about 10:00 a.m.
  • Went back to bed to watch Lost Girl on Netflix and needed to nap for a couple of hours
  • Looked in my Filofax and couldn't face doing anything 
  • Didn't feel interested in the things I normally enjoy
  • Didn't go to aikido class
  • Felt teary, emotional and very low all day. 
I think that in the past, I have found it hard to accept that on some days I am unable to improve how I feel. It can be tiring needing to work on my mood most days in the winter, but I am grateful that I can make a difference even if I still feel tired. However, from time to time I just have to say 'today is a rough day' and cope with it the best that I can right now by being kind to myself, and finding the easiest options for anything that I might need to get done.

Tomorrow is another day, and thank goodness that Spring is nearly here :) 

Wednesday, 11 February 2015